Alhamdulillah

Has it ever occurred to you a time that you regret so many things in life, knowing and believing that if only there was another chance, you would ask that it was different, that it wasn't the way it now is..

Has it ever occurred in you an urge to ask for something better, for something more..

Has it ever crossed your mind a feeling of dissatisfaction as you see yourself in the mirror, gazing at your failures, your smashed hopes, your forgotten dreams..

Well, if you think you answered no for each of these questions stated above..then just stop reading, coz what i'm about to say would mean nothing to you.

You see, I'm a human. And I also have been through these conditions. I seriously understand how hopeless it felt...

But one day, as I was so depressed..I began looking for solutions..and this is what i ended up with..

Maybe I am not that clever..but I have a brain..and it could still think..Alhamdulillah..
Maybe I am not strong..but I have a body..hands and feet..and it could still move..Alhamdulillah..
Maybe I am not perfect..but I still could do things others can't..and I am proud of it..Alhamdulillah..


So are there things that I missed? Things that I failed? Of course there are!! 
But there much much more things that I still have. And I can't even say its enough..because He'll still keep giving and I'll still be needing it..

So its just...Alhamdulillah..

Say what you do? Do what you say?

Today I shared a hadith, something about the 4 things that could guarantee Jannah.
1. Good words
2. Spreading the Salam
3. Maintaining good relationships
4. Praying when others sleep. (qiamullail)

So as I ended the sharing session, i began pondering..have i myself achieved in practicing these things that i say? So do i have the right to speak? To preach? Is it true that one must not say what he is incapable of doing? Should we just only speak of deeds that we have done and never advice others of sins that we are still doing? So as I thought about it the whole night, I came across this hadith..

On the authority of Anas RA; He said that they (the companions) once asked Rasulullah SAW:
" Ya Rasulullah, is it true that we should not preach others to do good, until ourselves have done it,
and that we should not prevent them from certain sins, until ourselves have succeeded in preventing all? "
And in answering, he (Rasulullah) said:
" It's not like that. Preach others of deeds, though you haven't done them and prevent others from sins, though you haven't avoided all of them."
( at-Tabrani - assogheer wal awsot )

If any of you have proof that this hadith is dha'if, please state, because i just read it in a book.

At BMI

Alhamdulillah..all was safe..but somethings in the journey went out of hands..
Missed Jalan Duta, got lost in Klang..
Did a few unneeded sightseeing at Pasar Seni..
But Alhamdulillah.I'm now at BMI..

Leaving..

This evening..mom said: 'Did you know, your late uncle and aunties (my uncle 2 years bcoz of bacteria, my auntie died 4 years ago due to an accident, and her sister died a year b4 that bcoz of denggi) never knew that as they stepped out of their house they would never return..'
Well, literally one would never know when one will die, so no one knows whether the journey would be the last or not..
But when my mother said this 2 me, I understood enough..
Tonite, at 10.15 sharp i'll be on the bus. A journey to kl, back to college.
Please pray that all will be safe and sound..
Ya Allah, if I am to die..let it be in iman..

Khamsan Qabla Khamsin

Praying Isya' at the Datuk Keramat Musholla made me realise two things.

1. That the majority of the makmum..and of course plus the imam were elders. I mean really elders. So I started thinking..is the population by age an inverse triangle? I mean, are there more fifty plus2 aged men in this country than twenty plus2? Answer yourself, because the musholla seemed to prove that.

2. That actually being old is not that easy. I mean yeah, i know its hard...with the health problems and everything. But as I prayed ba'adiah, i couldn't help notice the man in front of me lethargically rising for his second rakaat. I apologise if this is considered as an insult, but generally speaking he was old and cranky. And in seeing this, I finally realised what Rasulullah sallallahu alayhi wasallam meant by your youth before your old age in this hadith:

"Ightanim khamsan qabla khamsin: hayaataka qabla mautika, wa sihhataka qabla saqamika, wa faraaghaka qabla shughulika, wa shabaabaka qabla haramika wa ghinaaka qabla faqrika.""Take advantage of five before five: your life before your death, your health before your illness, your free time before becoming busy, your youth before your old age and your wealth before your poverty."

All this while  i didn't realise the fact that if by His means, each and everyone of us will individually grow old. And by that time everything we have now would be gone. Our strength, our spirits, our dreams, our abilities..all gone..engulfed by age. So would we wait. Wait till the age comes, when at that time we are sure of death around the corner. And only then we would struggle to repent, to do 'amal, to seek jannah..and without strength, without dreams, without energy..would it be that easy? Think for yourself while you still can.

So ightanim!!
Ightanim shabaabaka qabla haramik!!

Just redha. Its a process.

Death, pain, despair, failure.

These are a just a few out of many things that shake our lives. That open our eyes. However, failing to understand the hikmah (reasons) for these tests will bring up something much unwanted ie. depress, hopeless and may even end up to suicide.

No i'm not telling you that you MUST understand why each and every thing happens, because it would be impossible to do so...

but what i am telling you that if you could consider these things as tests, not just for you, but for each and everyone in this world, and realise that the One spinning the wheel is Allah...then sometimes you could see that behind dark clouds are actually rain. Beautiful molecules of hydrogen and oxygen, so detailly combined, so complexly oriented, that no one could explain except Him. And only Him. 

155. And certainly, We shall test you with something of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives and fruits, but give glad tidings to As-Sabirin (the patient ones, etc.).
156. Who, when afflicted with calamity, say: "Truly! To Allah we belong and truly, to Him we shall return."
157. They are those on whom are the Salawat (i.e. blessings, etc.) (i.e. who are blessed and will be forgiven) from their Lord, and (they are those who) receive His Mercy, and it is they who are the guided-ones.
 (Surah Al-Baqarah 2)

214. Or think you that you will enter Paradise without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? They were afflicted with severe poverty and ailments and were so shaken that even the Messenger and those who believed along with him said, "When (will come) the Help of Allah?" Yes! Certainly, the Help of Allah is near!
 (Surah Al-Baqarah 2)

82. Verily, His Command, when He intends a thing, is only that He says to it, "Be!" and it is!
83. So Glorified is He and Exalted above all that they associate with Him, and in Whose Hands is the dominion of all things, and to Him you shall be returned.
 (Surah Yaasin 36)

Simply said, there are some incidents in life that we really can't plan.

No I'm sorry, there are MANY things in life that we can't plan. But by believing that things happen in our way made us become humans that deny the fact of how things should be and should not. And we start blaming condition, blaming ourselves, blaming others. The truth is, even I don't know what i'm babbling about...haha..

The truth is, learn to accept

No not just accept that it HAS HAPPENED..

but to also accept that is HAS TO HAPPEN..

and there you'll find REDHA..and there you'll see that its a process in life