Today something triggered in me, not some unleashed force like the jedi or Jinchuuriki force..but a certain strength that i've long lost. The strength to control.
Today i learnt back the lesson i forgot. That in becoming a muslim, it is you who gives the orders, it is you controls.
And alhamdulillah, today i implemented it.
Every morning, i forced myself to do it.
Every time i saw the Quran, i forced myself to read it.
Every day at 10.30, i forced myself to pray dhuha.
Every time i hear the azan, i forced myself to the masjid.
Every time after prayers, i forced myself to pray ba'diah.
Because I know.
If i waited, for the proper time, the proper mood, the proper intentions..
It would never come, and in the end i would just not do it.
And still wait..and wait..and wait..
Hey, ikhlas wouldn't exist if there was no enforcement. And Allah knows what plays in my heart..more than you do, even more than i do.
So be the boss of your heart.
And NEVER wait.
Coz believe me, the word waiting never ends.
For each (such person) there are (angels) in succession, before and behind him: They guard him by command of Allah. Verily never will Allah change the condition of a people until they change it themselves (with their own souls). But when (once) Allah willeth a people's punishment, there can be no turning it back, nor will they find, besides Him, any to protect.
For You are the Almighty